Towards the end of treatment we were asked to write a ‘Hello Recovery’ Letter. I can’t even describe how emotional it was to put this all on paper. I remember reading to to my group and having a good ugly cry
I remember how low and hopeless it felt when I was struggling. If this can help one person to see that recovery is possible – this extremely personal post will be worth it. You are not alone, you are worthy and you are LOVED. Please reach out to me if you or someone you know needs someone to talk to or if you have any questions about rehab.
June 18, 2017
Every day with you is a blessing. Our relationship won’t be free of problems but we will take it 1 day at a time. I am so happy I am finally here. I am happy and free to be the real me.
My addiction held me back from a life I always deserved. I love waking up every day sober. My happiness is real. My mind is clear to make better choices and have healthier relationships. Unfortunately I have to cut many people from my life. The friends and family members that don’t support my recovery journey can no longer be an active part of my life. ****** has done too much damage and moving forward I will not support any kind of relationship with ******. **** were not real friends – They enjoy pulling me down. Openly telling me about the hopes to see me fail – REAL friends don’t do that.
No more one-sided friendships or putting everyone else before myself. Recovery is my #1 priority and I am my own best friend. My health will get back on track and I will try things that scare me. Each day will have a purpose of becoming better than the Courtney I was the day before.
My life will be less complicated and I can’t wait to see where my journey will take me. Recovery is my chance to be the woman I always wanted to be.
No more black-out horror stories or mysterious injuries. No more waking up on the bathroom floor or staring at unfamiliar ceilings. No more missed opportunities of self-hate.
The internal struggle is over. No more vicious cycle. Now I wake up each morning GRATEFUL for my struggle. It led me to this beautiful life. The focus is on ME now. My relationships will be more positive and HEALTHY. There is no problem with being assertive to ask for what I need. I’ll let go of things I can’t control. I’ll stand up for myself and make sure my voice is heard.
I’ll dream BIG and make plans. One day I will have a family of my own. My children won’t grow up in the viscous cycle of abuse or addiction.
Things in my life will not be toxic. My spirituality will be heightened. I’ll be capable of loving and receiving love in the most genuine way. I will embrace my feelings and NEVER hide behind a mask again. I am so excited for this new life – I will never let anyone convince me I am not worthy again. I am going to make the best of this second chance – this gift. My mission now is to pay it forward every chance I get.
I am so thankful to finally be here. ❤